When I was 5 I drank a sip of my mother’s wine –
Red and dry –
Thinking it must taste delicious
As I was not allowed to have any
When I was 10 I had my first drop of champagne –
The bubbles went up my nose –
And I laughed, giddy and proud of myself
For being so grown up
At 17, I had my first taste of sickly sweet rum
That I found in the back of my parents’ liquor cabinet
It burned my throat but I kept drinking
Wanting to stop thinking, and live for once
Later that year I got drunk off of everything I could find
Thinking that the more the world spun the happier
My life would become, not understanding th
Memories
They come back to you in bursts
Waves of feeling crashing
Swelling and splashing
Residue of pain, love, regret
Spraying across your already
Destroyed soul
It is like a gunshot
Into your heart
One moment you are fine
And then some tiny thing
Triggers a moment from the
Past, and you are filled with
Loss
What do you do when you are broken?
And everything you once knew is no longer
When your heart is a crumpled pile of half-formed
Emotions
When love is no longer a joyous occasion, but one of
Pain
What do you do when you no longer know yourself?
When you look in the mirror and a stranger stares back
Eyes haunted and glassy, skin pale, dry lips turned up in a
Wry Smile
What are those bruises upon your ivory neck?
Did those happen in a dream-turned-reality?
They turn purple then green but never seem to fade
Dreams are an interesting state of being
But when are we not in a dream?
We create them for ourselves, living happily within
The Essence of Time by YellowFlamingo25, literature
Literature
The Essence of Time
Long after your kisses fade from my skin and
Your touch becomes but a ghost of contact
(I shiver as I think of fingertips brushing on skin)
(Is that you? Have thoughts transformed into reality?)
The words remain, the loving rhymes and rhythms
I wrote in times of joy and in times of pain
Their pixels haunting me, reminding me of what once was
You can try to forget, try to move on, but then you
Read over the words written by Love and you
Cannot stop remembering
Long after feelings dissipate Love, Lust, Hurt
The words written when they were poignant
Remain and they are a sullen specter, twisting
Their way into
There are the days when everything is brighter
Thoughts tap dancing across my mind
Dreams escaping my subconscious
Energy flowing out of my fingertips
My heart swelling with love and delight
A smile adorning my face
Eyes bright with laughter
I don't need food or sleep
I run off of Magic
Ideas seem to explode from within me
Spilling out into the world
Then my body crumples to ash
And the world becomes dark, a
Shadowy void of doubt and fears
Paranoia grips at my chest, depression
Lingers in my mind, slowing my thoughts,
Each breath becomes deliberate and effortful
Each movement a chore, slow and steady
Existential angst seem
When I was 5 I drank a sip of my mother’s wine –
Red and dry –
Thinking it must taste delicious
As I was not allowed to have any
When I was 10 I had my first drop of champagne –
The bubbles went up my nose –
And I laughed, giddy and proud of myself
For being so grown up
At 17, I had my first taste of sickly sweet rum
That I found in the back of my parents’ liquor cabinet
It burned my throat but I kept drinking
Wanting to stop thinking, and live for once
Later that year I got drunk off of everything I could find
Thinking that the more the world spun the happier
My life would become, not understanding th
Memories
They come back to you in bursts
Waves of feeling crashing
Swelling and splashing
Residue of pain, love, regret
Spraying across your already
Destroyed soul
It is like a gunshot
Into your heart
One moment you are fine
And then some tiny thing
Triggers a moment from the
Past, and you are filled with
Loss
What do you do when you are broken?
And everything you once knew is no longer
When your heart is a crumpled pile of half-formed
Emotions
When love is no longer a joyous occasion, but one of
Pain
What do you do when you no longer know yourself?
When you look in the mirror and a stranger stares back
Eyes haunted and glassy, skin pale, dry lips turned up in a
Wry Smile
What are those bruises upon your ivory neck?
Did those happen in a dream-turned-reality?
They turn purple then green but never seem to fade
Dreams are an interesting state of being
But when are we not in a dream?
We create them for ourselves, living happily within
The Essence of Time by YellowFlamingo25, literature
Literature
The Essence of Time
Long after your kisses fade from my skin and
Your touch becomes but a ghost of contact
(I shiver as I think of fingertips brushing on skin)
(Is that you? Have thoughts transformed into reality?)
The words remain, the loving rhymes and rhythms
I wrote in times of joy and in times of pain
Their pixels haunting me, reminding me of what once was
You can try to forget, try to move on, but then you
Read over the words written by Love and you
Cannot stop remembering
Long after feelings dissipate Love, Lust, Hurt
The words written when they were poignant
Remain and they are a sullen specter, twisting
Their way into
There are the days when everything is brighter
Thoughts tap dancing across my mind
Dreams escaping my subconscious
Energy flowing out of my fingertips
My heart swelling with love and delight
A smile adorning my face
Eyes bright with laughter
I don't need food or sleep
I run off of Magic
Ideas seem to explode from within me
Spilling out into the world
Then my body crumples to ash
And the world becomes dark, a
Shadowy void of doubt and fears
Paranoia grips at my chest, depression
Lingers in my mind, slowing my thoughts,
Each breath becomes deliberate and effortful
Each movement a chore, slow and steady
Existential angst seem
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